It’s why I can go back to when I
was six, and also two weeks ago, and
dictate it like it’s happening right in
front of me.
You can take what I dictate as
Gospel, except maybe the context.
That’s obviously my personal opinion.
Anyway, most of the time, I have
control over my playback functions, but
what you don’t know is why I sometimes
lose that control.
Long before I met you, I decided
to stop telling people about it, be-
cause I’ve been beat up, almost killed
a couple times, and even Beth wanted to
shoot me when she found out about it.
I guess if I fought back, I would-
n’t get beat up so much, but why?
That’s exactly what I deserve, and af-
ter that first punch, all I can see is
* that video anyway. The pain feels good,
but dying, I don’t know about that one
anymore.
Back in the beginning, dying real-
ly would’ve solved everything. No more
Darkness. No more video. No more guilt.
No more anything, but now, it scares
the fuck out of me.
I get these crazy impulses, and I
just can’t stop myself.
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