That all changed just before      
Denise left.                           
     My partner on the Dark-Side was on
a bathroom break, and that’s when they 
came to take the cage away. It was just
a tiny pup, and after they left, the   
Darkness hit me faster and harder than 
it ever had.                           
     Alicia was on one of her room     
checks and caught me banging my head   
against the cement wall.               
     She didn’t even care that, once   
she entered the Dark-Side, she’d have  
to shower and change. She immediately  
ran over and tried to stop me.         
     Before I could even stop myself, I
banged my head and her hand against the
wall, real hard, and she screamed.     
     The video stopped, and the Dark-  
ness immediately went away. Like it was
* trying to tell me that hurting someone   
else, instead of me, would stop all    
this, and make it all go away.         
     I knew I’d never do anything like 
that just to stop the video. At least  
while I was in my right mind anyway,   
but what if somehow my mind flipped,   
and I didn’t have control anymore?     
     What if I went after Beth?        
     And that’s what really scared me  
about what happened with Alicia, and   
that meant I had to always keep con-   
trol. Always.                          
     Not being able to stop my impulses
didn’t help, but thank God, those      
didn’t last for more than a few seconds
anyway, and besides, sometimes they    
were useful, like when they helped us  
save Dodger.                           



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